Motherhood these days. . .

Hello again! I hope everyone is having a happy 2016 (you know since it's March and I haven't posted anything since December)! We have been super busy with trips to South Carolina and just generally trying to ready ourselves for baby girl to arrive in one month. I  am hoping to have a completed nursery post for you in the next few weeks. Anyway today I wanted to share a little bit about how motherhood has been lately.

As most of you know we will have a two year old in one month and I for one am not ready for that. Especially since the tantrums have already begun around casa de Gonzalez. I think the worst part has to be that so many people always comment that Teddy is at such a fun age and sometimes I would agree but when he is screaming crying on the floor because I said no about something I have a hard time seeing the fun age part. Maybe it's just being eight months pregnant and exhausted that makes it hard to find the fun in this stage. I mean it is amazing to see all that he is learning everyday and he is getting better and better at communicating what he wants and needs. However sometimes this leads to more tantrums I think due to miscommunication or just him not being able to have what he wants. I know that this will pass and I already feel like he is growing up too fast but sometimes I wish for it to pass a little faster. Then I feel like the worst mom ever for wishing his babyhood away.

Also anyone else terrified about baby number two as their due date approached? I mean I feel like I have been having mental meltdowns lately worrying about all the things a new baby brings to the table. Teddy is very attached to his mama and while he did not seem to mind sharing me with other children that go home at the end of the day I think he might feel a little differently about his sister. Don't get me wrong he loves babies and I think he will be very protective over her but how do you explain to a two year old that mommy has to spend time with baby sister too? I know some of this fear is coming from being twenty one hours away from our family and they helped out so much with Teddy his first year but this time it will just be Jose and I. I know people do it all the time and make it through but this girl is terrified at the moment.

We'll now that I have just emptied my thoughts on motherhood lately in quite a lengthy post (kudos if you read this far) I will leave you with some adorable pictures of Teddy and our family outings lately.

Our little pensive thinker. He has started doing this a lot more lately.